So if you note the dates of these blog entries, you notice I’ve been absent for a while. It started because my history makes me know how websites can be monetized. That’s just fancy talk meaning “to make money.”
Now there is nothing wrong with someone doing some honest work and getting paid, but GOD inspired me to make this and some other websites for the purpose of helping people, not getting paid. Somehow that greedy place buried deep inside all of us found its way to the surface and making money was on my mind. I was thinking about my book series and my websites and how I can get eyes on them. How could I promote the work I’m doing.
It took GOD doing something special to remind me that HIS goal for me was to create quality work and make it available to people. It is not my job how to get that work in front of those people. He will make sure whoever needs to see it will see it.
That realization, and processing it mentally, emotionally and spiritually really knocked me down. I decided to get much deeper into getting my current book completed, so it can be published. And I moved away from the “make money” attitude just accepting that GOD made me, in my mid 60s, capable of still working a full time job so I really don’t have a shortage of money.
While interacting with someone helping me on that book, last Thursday eve I noticed an email from a vendor from one of my other websites. I skimmed the message stating I had a sale and had made 52 cents. There had been absolutely no effort to get that eBook nor its related website in front of anyone. I hadn’t done any promotional work, and was even considering “unpublishing” it and taking that website offline. Not thinking much about it, we continued on with the work of further edits on that book.
The next day at work though, GOD had that email just planted in my third eye. I just couldn’t seem to shake it out of my head. Big woop, I made 52 cents. It was on an eBook I had done a few months ago and not related to reaching people with the message of salvation in any way.
Since I had finally accepted that I am healthy and could possibly just keep working a day job until I meet my expiration date, why was there a sale of that eBook? And why wouldn’t GOD let me ignore it?
Finally I realized. Some tell me I’m really smart, but sometimes pretty dumb. GOD was showing me that without my help, He put that book in front of someone. Someone that could benefit from its contents. GOD doesn’t need my help for others that need to find work He gave me, or to send me a little unexpected money.
I don’t have to worry about who sees this website or any of my spiritual books either. Their titles are a bit off the cuff, and some might even think them controversial, so the titles alone will get them noticed. By the right people anyway. GOD will see to that without my help.
GOD inspired me to do these works. Then that greed place inside me recognized how I could do quality work and also get paid. This tremendously inflated my motivation. GOD had to remind me getting paid wasn’t any part of my mission, which temporarily deflated my motivation. And now He reminded me He would handle all that part without my help. I just had to get my head right. Or maybe it was my heart.
Anyway, I will try make at least one update on this website every week from now on.